Island

I remember when it happened
when I opened my eyes
the world was in chaos then
but nothing like it is now
my mindset didn't just change 
it had to evolve 
and when it did 
everything that I was 
no longer existed 
I found myself on an island 
deserted 
treated like a child
who didn't know any better
not being taken seriously
why are you so positive 
look at the world around you 
don't you see what's going on 
of course I see what's going on
I saw that then 
and I still see it now
even with my eyes closed
I just feel more balanced
than I was before
but maybe that's just me

© 2018

Mind's Eye

And therein lies the problem
we cannot let perception
our perception 
supersede reality
what we see
isn't always what's there
just because we have eyes
doesn't mean we have vision
even if we're so sure
what we're seeing is real 
our eyes have lied before
maybe we're seeing 
what we really want to see
and therein lies the problem
our thoughts can betray us as well
by having their own agenda
creating this alternate reality
where everyone gets hurt
and I mean everyone
we cannot let perception 
our perception
have an agenda 
it must instead have vision
and therein lies the problem

© 2018

Move On

That's a very good question 

why do we compete with each other

haven't we been through enough

to just want the best for ourselves

without trying to outdo one another

I know we probably blame that person

for all the pain we've endured

and as a result of that pain

we feel like they don't deserve to win

they don't get to be successful

or have any peace at all

but what about our peace

hurt people hurt people too

so if we don't find a way to stop hurting 

we'll find a way to hurt someone else

everything that happened

I know it wasn't fair 

and things may never be the same

but we must find a way to move on

or we'll spend the rest of our lives
being angry with each other

trying to compete with one another

while destroying ourselves

it'll be the last thing we do together

© 2018

Overqualified Haiku

Sitting there at work
knowing you're destined for more;
the clock is ticking.

© 2018

L.O.V.E. Notes: Temptation

It has always been beautiful
but only for a moment
giving in would feel incredible
unlike anything I've ever felt
but only for a moment
this is bigger than a moment
bigger than any desires
or fantasies I've had in the past 
this is my life
I know we're not supposed to
take ourselves too seriously
but my progression is serious
and so is my purpose
I won't let anything threatening that 
not even for a moment 
for what I hope to accomplish
I stand to lose everything
that includes everything I stand for 
all the respect others have for me 
who would I be then
so I can't give in no matter what 
not even for a moment 

<3

© 2018 

Antidote

You don't belong there
not in that type of environment
it's a toxic environment
and the more you breathe in
the more infected you become
even your body aches
weakened by the damage done
from the stress of it all
no wonder you're always tired
but at least you're still beautiful
that is until your beauty begins to fade
and your eyes can no longer hide 
the fact that you're dying inside
how did you ever expect to thrive
when you're barely surviving now
it's because of your faith
that you've lasted this long
but now is the time 
to start believing in yourself
and be the antidote your body needs
you don't belong there
not in that type of environment
so give yourself a chance
to live a life free from toxicity 

© 2018

Figured Out

You're still trying to figure me out
I haven't even figured it all out yet
but the question is still being asked
why do I do what I do 
is this really my purpose in life
or is it just another cry for help
from that lonely depressed kid
who had very few friends growing up 
flirt
guardian angel
hero
names I'm very familiar with 
but in my mind I hear
misunderstood
villain
martyr
I can't really control what's been said
because as people's energy changes
their perception of me changes also
maybe this has happened for you
so why do I do what I do
because it's who I am
and I chose to be who I am
that's all I've figured out so far

© 2018