Keep Telling Yourself

This is not why you survived
it wasn't so you could keep getting abused
by those who still believe you to be weak
or by those who claim to love you
it's obvious you're still hurting
the pain just doesn't go away overnight
and they knew it wouldn't 
so they tried to get to you
they tried to back you into a corner
knowing you barely escaped the first time
making you question how ready you were
but you know how hard it is to grow
when everyone around tries to change you
that's why you couldn't hide forever
just like you can't hide those scars
or the memories of how they came to be
remember why you survived
it was for a chance at Life
the chance to live the life you imagined
without feeling like you made a mistake
you didn't make a mistake by the way
it was the best decision you've ever made
but if you let them have their way again 
maybe there won't be a next time

© 2017

Rearview

They say you never know where you're going

until you first know where you've been

but that doesn't mean you have to look back

and you're always looking back

when everything you need is in front of you

no one's telling you to forget what's happened

it's not even possible to do so anyway

you don't forget those who've turned on you

or those who said you were out of your mind

for wanting to be something better

you don't forget the ones who laughed at you

not when you use them as fuel to keep going

but do you really need them to keep going

isn't it your drive that keeps you striving for more

so why give credit to the undeserving 

once the light inside of you was discovered

you were unstoppable from that point on

just telling people that they were wrong 

won't be nearly as satisfying as showing them

maybe that's why you keep looking back

you want to make sure they can see everything

but the only person you need to see is yourself

who else is going to help you get there

the only person who can stop you of course

© 2017

L.O.V.E. Notes: Beautiful Disaster

What will become of you
can you answer that question
or are you still undecided 
and uninvited to the party 
where your ideas get together
to share their thoughts 
on what they really think of you
some would see that as taboo
but that's the way your mind works
it loves to trick you
make you question everything
without providing a single answer
so that you obsess over it
instead of getting over it
you take comfort in the pain 
while the agony drives you insane
and that's when you self-destruct
from overthinking too much
so unless you crash the party
all anyone will ever see is fireworks

<3

© 2017