L.O.V.E. Notes: Heavy Heart

Grandmother

my best friend

please forgive me

as the keeper

of our memories 

I couldn't allow that

to be our last one

you raised me 

and when you were

taken from your home

I felt powerless

when the pandemic came

everything changed

I wasn't allowed to visit

and my face became 

unrecognizable 

I guess we both

began to fade away

shortly thereafter 

you would barely eat

and you were in pain

even though you didn't 

understand why

because your heart

and faith were strong

you taught me strength

but I just feel sadness

don't be disappointed in me

please watch over me

and forgive me

for wanting to keep

the memories I have

<3

© 2022

Variant

There was a moment

sitting in that room

laying in the bed

finding it hard to breathe

I was terrified 

Covid-19

what was it doing

to my lungs

and why does it

feel like a boulder 

sitting on my chest

that's when I thought 

about those who've 

passed away

loved ones

not just from Covid

my last memories of them

words unspoken

promises unkept

feelings hurt

but what are hurt feelings

to a broken heart

so all I can do is 

look to the sky 

speak those words

and hope they hear me

until we meet again

I can still breathe

so I must be better

even if there's a chance

things get worse

and since I don't know

how much damage

Covid has done

every breath counts

more than ever before

© 2022