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If my heart had a journal 
you would read about a love that's eternal 
anything negative that was said
it wouldn't matter
not today 
or any other day for that matter
word for word 
line for line 
love will always be mine forever
because eternal means forever
sounds like quite the endeavor 
for some it may seem like a really long time
but I've never felt anything as sublime
as love
so no matter what
it's what I feel
especially now
and although people always ask me how
with everything I've been through
how is it still possible
some are even still asking me why 
but I simply reply 
with everything I've been through
how can I not

© 2014

From Afar

That's me off in the distance
I offer little resistance 
as I watch you from afar
like a star
through the lens of my telescope
with the hope that you would shine
but I knew you would be just fine
thoughts of being by your side still haunt me 
I wasn't as close as I wanted to be
and what I wanted to see
I could only see from afar
so how can I be where you are
maybe I'm afraid 
even though I have nothing to fear
is that why I feel safer over here
maybe I'm being selfish
but it just felt right 
to stay out of sight
while keeping you in my sights 
I didn't want my love to be in your way
so I found a way to love you
and still have an amazing view
as I watch how amazing you become 
from afar 

© 2014

Can't Blame You Haiku

Maybe it's not all 
bad having a place you can
go to be alone. 

© 2014

What You Had

If you loved her the most
why didn't you keep her close
no wonder she went ghost
what's the lesson here
don't take your woman for granted
because you won't be able to stand it
seeing her kiss someone else
wishing she was still kissing you
and maybe she's missing you
like you miss her
but you'll never know it
her pride won't let her show it
then you'll find yourself posting pictures
talking about how this could be us
or how this should be us
but all that does
is force you to remember what was
then you become even more sad 
as you remember what you once had
you've gone from words unspoken 
to a heart that's broken
now you'll never feel her lips again
who cares if she wasn't a ten
she was the one

© 2014

Foggy Mirror Haiku

Seeing your breath is
sometimes the only way to 
know you're still alive.

© 2014

L.O.V.E. Notes: Kiss Of Life

Before you go
save me a kiss
take my breath away 
the way you used to 
keep me coming back
asthma attack
that won't stop me
just so you know
so before you go 
save me a kiss
but not just any kiss
the kiss of life
without a doubt
that's the one I want
so how about once more
just like before
only this time
let's stop time
so you don't have to go
please don't go  
we can make it last
even better than the past
kiss me
save me 

<3

© 2014

I'll Keep Going (Even When It Rains)

Have you ever see a man break down
and not just break down
but break down in the rain 
I thought it would wash away the pain
but it didn't 
it did however disguise my tears
something I've been trying to do for years
nevertheless I kept walking 
until I found myself talking 
to a parking lot attendant
who went from attending to the cars
to attending to my scars
it's amazing where one can find solace
and as the rain continued to pour
so did the emotion
as I spoke on my devotion towards the cause
because that's why I'm here
my purpose is still clear
but at times my hands still shake
I'm not sure how much more of this I can take
as I finally made it to my car
I realized that I parked pretty far
but nothing I went through could stop me 
I guess that means the rain will quit before I do

© 2014

You've Seen It Before

Well look at you 

so beautiful in your blindfold

now I know you can't see

but can you at least feel the cold

there's a chill in the air

do you even care 

in my opinion it's hard to say 

because day after day 

all I hear are complaints

as if your wearing restraints 

without being tied down

I could've complained

but I refrained just because

it didn't seem as bad as I thought it was

when will you come to your senses

and realize you have other senses

I mean you smell victory 

but still rather taste defeat

stop taking a backseat

when you belong behind the wheel

let's be real 

wear the blindfold if you want to 

but just because you've seen the past

doesn't mean it has to haunt you

© 2014

Vigil

Find the truth
believe me I've tried
but it seems that everywhere I turn
access denied
nothing but lies
it's been this way since birth
and how can I know my own worth
when they lie about the prices paid
from all the sacrifices made
check the history books 
there are lies about how history looks
because really it's a history of crooks
yet they're not referred to as crooks
they're called explorers 
and while those books still sit on our shelves
we want to fight for rights we think we have
but neglect the right to think for ourselves
we scream for justice
thinking it's just us 
but we know the media hides the truth well
so how can we dislike what we're being told
then be okay with being controlled
find the truth
we better hope the truth finds us

© 2014

Coming Or Going

I was told it would be worth the wait
so I was expecting a pearly gate
but it wasn't what I thought it would be
maybe God didn't remember me
still I wanted to see it for myself
I just never imagined I would be by myself
now I have no way of knowing 
if I'm truly coming or going
and although I'm not at all afraid to fall 
but if I do fall 
I just hope I land on a cloud
because I remember once being too proud
never asking anyone for help
that's why I'm grateful for every breath
for each one makes me stronger than death
that's also why I keep such a tight grip
because I knew there was I chance I might slip
I'm still not sure how I got here in the first place
or more importantly now where here is
is this where my fear lives
or where my happiness dies 
maybe this is just where my happiness cries
sounds like there's still no way of knowing
if I'm truly coming or going

© 2014

Where's My Haiku

In my opinion, 
the worst day ever is when 
your smile disappears. 

© 2014

Letter

I wrote you a letter 
but you didn't get the last one
so I'm making this the last one
what else can I say 
I prepared for this day 
please try to understand
don't take this the wrong way
I'll still be cheering 
just from the crowd
but don't think I won't be as loud
I only wish to see you prevail
what type of male would I be
if I wished you the worst 
that would bring out the worst in me
so I wrote you a letter 
I could've done a face to face
but let's face it 
the thought of facing you 
was just too hard for me to do 
please don't ask me why
I'm really trying not to cry 
so let's just keep our eyes dry
even if this is how we say goodbye

© 2014

Have A Good Night Haiku

Did someone tell you
it wasn't okay to dream?
I didn't think so.

© 2014

Since 2004 (Translated From Spanish)

I still dream about you
even after all these years
but I don't know why
I've never met you
and I have no children of my own
but still you're there
in my dreams
only in my dreams
I remember when I found this photo
and you know what
she looks like you
or at least how I imagine you
in my dreams
your eyes
that smile
and your hair
maybe I'm crazy
I dont know
but I have hope
hope in a dream
even after all these years
and I don't know why
still you're my favorite dream
even if you're just a dream

© 2014

In The Cold

I bit the hand that fed me

and look where it led me

now I'm out in the cold

I guess I was just too bold

even though I was told 

this is where I would be 

they never believed I would leave

so why did I leave 

it just didn't seem real

being told how to feel 

I tried being myself

but I was someone else

now I'm out in the cold

I may be on my own 

but I'm not alone

there are others

my new sisters

my new brothers 

like me they've weathered the storm 

they're just looking for some place warm

so not only will we survive in the cold

but we'll thrive in the cold 

because I guess we're just too bold

either that or we're still hungry

© 2014

At [INNER]Peace

I admit that I live with regret
but it hasn't destroyed me yet
and it won't 
still it's hard to forget
that I messed up the chance
to dance
when all I wanted to do was dance
but I'm thankful that found peace
so I'm at peace
and I still have a ways to go
but now that I know which way to go
and which ways to grow
mentally 
spiritually 
and physically 
it's much easier to let things go
and let it flow
but if I find myself beginning to panic
or becoming frantic
I don't cry
because my energy's at an all time high
so no more wasting my tears on fear
like I've done over the years
I rather live in peace while I'm here

© 2014

Little Lies (Dark Eyes)

What you don't know
won't hurt you
but what about me
don't worry about me
that's why I tell you that I'm fine
so you don't worry about me
but I'm lying
just a little bit
I mean I'm flying 
just not as high I said I was
why
because
I say it's my stress level
or maybe it's the Devil
call it what you wish 
I just wish it wouldn't keep me up at night
my mind wanders
as I ponder what's happened to me
and why it's happening to me 
most days I wake up
and thank God for makeup
but the eyes never lie 
the darkness is still there
I don't care anyway
at the end of the day
I give my loved ones a kiss
and tell them I got this
because I wouldn't lie about that

© 2014

Speaking Of Love

What is this love you speak of

either we share a different definition

or I'm not paying attention

I mean listen 

while it's an honor to mention
the one you love
treating them like honorable mention
wouldn't be the wisest decision 
unless that's the love you envision

that's probably not the love they had in mind
so I'm sure they mind how you treat them
it's such a shame
hearing you call them out their name
claiming they're to blame 
when really you're to blame
blaming them is really lame by the way
what happened to you
remember the poems each day
the encouraging words you would say
now every word is a curse
and your poems are even worse
so what is this love you speak of 
speak up
before you lose the one you love

© 2014

Complicated

Maybe I was just too complicated
why else would I've contemplated 
the idea of being together
then trying to figure out how to get her
whereas before 
I had her
or at least I had the opportunity 
I talked about the need for more unity
and could've helped build a union
but maybe I was just too complicated
why else would God have confiscated
my blessing that day
by taking away those lips
that took my breath away 
leaving me with nothing to say
only the sound of my knees
as they hit the ground
screaming please
come back 
I may have been faithful 
but in fact had I kept my faith full
and my feet firmly planted
I wouldn't have taken her for granted
so what's complicated about that

© 2014

Hold The Crown

Born to be a king
made to sit on the throne
just hoping I don't have to sit here alone
but for now I'll hold it down
I'm unaware 
of how much pain I can bare
so why is it this hard to hold the crown
I shouldn't act this way
stressing over the same things each day
then I wake up in mourning 
instead of waking up every morning
excited for what each day brings
thy kingdom come
thy will be done
which means I've already won
as long as I stay faithful
and remain humble 
or else watch my kingdom crumble
I can't worry if everything I do is unseen
and I know that every king needs a queen
but for now I'll hold it down
I was born on purpose
so I must stay focused on the purpose
even if it gets harder to hold the crown 

© 2014

Blank Stairs

It's said that what goes up

must come down

but I don't see anything 

doesn't that concern you 
it should

is that why your lip quivers 

did your thoughts betray you

perhaps it was fear

were you afraid to think 

maybe even afraid to feel 

no that's not it

I know what it is

you're biting your lip aren't you

and probably holding your tongue

it's not so much what goes up

must come down

but what if what went in

may decide to come out 

now I'm intrigued

what could you be hiding up there
whatever it is 

I encourage you to let it out
and soon

before it finds a way out on its own

© 2014

L.O.V.E. Notes: Alone Time

When you find yourself
by yourself
use that time to gather yourself
and remember one thing
what's done is done
but you've only just begun
don't worry about living up to the hype
because only losers give up
and you don't look like the type 
whatever it was 
own it 
but only dwell on it for a moment 
because what happens next
is everything

<3

© 2014

Stories From The Inside

I've never been behind bars

but in this world of ours 

there's more than one kind of prison

but those with a limited vision don't see that

and see that's what angers me

they believe they're helping still

so they get their thrills from prescribing pills

never mind me waking up at 3am with the chills

feeling like I'm coming off a high

wondering why I can't get enough rest

heart ready to burst through my chest 

because what's now causing my anxiety 

has nothing to do with society 

and everything to do with the drugs inside of me

but talk like that doesn't get you commended

it gets you committed

fitted with an outfit where the buckles fasten in the back

and where they take away your afternoon snack

replacing it with a sedative

making the rest of your stay there seem repetitive 

because they rather watch your condition worsen
than help make you a better person
but you're already a better person 
you just have to feel better 

© 2014

Breathe (Translated From Spanish)

When everything wants to go wrong
and you're feeling the urge to scream
or fighting back the urge to burst into tears 
take a moment 
lay your head back 
and just breathe 
inhale the positive
exhale the negative 
when everything wants to go wrong
make sure that you're good
there are things you can't control
but don't worry about those things
otherwise they will control you
just take a moment
breathe
and know that everything will be okay

© 2014

Gone

Take a good look at this face 
because you'll never see it again 
maybe you'll see it in passing
but it won't be the face you remember
you won't want to remember
and before you try to explain
know that there's nothing you can say
at least not now 
you had a chance to produce the truth
but you chose to create a lie
and in telling this lie
you showed blatant disrespect
it's a good thing I respect myself more
otherwise you would see the face of old
the face that would turn the other cheek
now I barely show my other cheek
the face that would smile through it all
when really I was just tired of it all
I still love you
it's a good thing I love myself more
so take a good look at this face
because you'll never see that face again
your light just isn't bright enough

© 2014

Weather Or Not Haiku

Come prepared for rain
or be prepared to wait for
the day it stops raining.

© 2014

With Patience (Translated From Spanish)

It's difficult to fight these tears
because my eyes want to cry
I'm running out of time
at least I feel like I am
there are no more questions I can ask
and no more answers I can give
I'm here waiting patiently
patience was never my best quality
I had to learn to be patient
but still my eyes want to cry 
I don't let them cry anymore
because they're very good at it
so what am I going to do then 
I have to wait 
and wait with patience
because it's the hardest thing to do

© 2014

Built For This Haiku

There's room next to you, 
but you alone can handle 
what's in front of you.

© 2014

Being A Better Person

You're just trying to be a better person

but it's hard when 

people remember you back then 

back when you were anything but kind

they didn't know what was going through your mind 

you didn't even know half the time

and you didn't even care if anybody cared

so why care if any feelings were spared 

now that's who you were 

but that's not who you are now

you're just trying to be a better person

but it's hard when 

people remember you back then

back when you were the scum of the earth 

but really you just didn't know your own worth

you didn't know you've been amazing since birth

how could you know 

with no encouragement 

only discouragement 

you took so much abuse

but never used any of it as an excuse

you figured what's the use

it's much better to focus on the things that matter

you're just trying to be a better person

© 2014

See Through The Haiku

Why would you hold on
to someone who only brings
darkness into your life?

© 2014

Build A Brighter Haiku

Dare your child to let

their dreams reach far beyond the 

street lights they look up to.

© 2014

Bound (Translated From Spanish)

Feet to the chair
hands over your eyes
and your glasses
you won't be needing them anymore
they never helped you anyway
can you hear anything
do you know where you are 
or who would do this to you
you must remember something
maybe you threw your glasses in frustration
because things could be better
but things could be worse also
so maybe you tied your feet to the chair
for fear that things would get worse
perhaps you were afraid of what you might do
so you tied your own hands with your teeth
and then you covered your eyes
so you wouldn't see what you had done
it's just a theory
but it's not so difficult to believe
it's our fears that trap us
and our faith that gives us the strength to escape
you've had yourself hostage for a while
now is the time to set yourself free

© 2014

Unseen Love

Would it help to keep your eyes closed

how about if you wear a blindfold 

do you think that those who are blind

won't know Love because they can't see it

do you think they've lost sight of it's meaning

or are they really without weakness

knowing that looks can be deceiving 

they don't go looking for it 

so why should you

why should any of us have to

how easy we forget that it once found us

how easy we forget that it surrounds us 

even when we curse it's name

then blame it for everything that's wrong

Love is still here

and it has been here all along 

in the past if Love was in the air 

we would've probably held our breath 

preferring death over another disappointment 

hopefully now we understand that it's not Love's fault

some people just don't wish to be caught

nor do they deserve to catch us

maybe we should let Love be

then maybe we'll realize what it means to truly see

© 2014

Roadkill Haiku

If you feel run down,
stop giving people the right
to run you over. 

© 2014

Tangled

You thought you would feel better
but ever since the day you snapped
you've felt trapped 
as if you've been caught in a web
now you feel like food for a spider
but you're a fighter
so you try your best to fight out 
when you were just trying your best to hide out
but this isn't a hideout
very few escape with their lives
so you're fortunate to be alive
unfortunately you've yet to break free
how did you get so tangled 
perhaps by refusing to give your pride any credit
that's why you let it continue to live within you

are you finally ready to accept responsibility 

or will you claim that you lacked the ability
to clean up the messes you've made
which forced you to seek refuge in the shade
knowing the truth would come to light
and had you realized that you are light
you would've seen that web you ran into
keep in mind it's not as strong as you
you're just making it look easy

© 2014

A Reason To Believe (Translated From Spanish)

You don't have to be afraid to show your face
there's no reason to fear
no reason to hide
you had everything
or so you thought
now you believe that you have nothing
but why
because you feel your hair through your fingers
and nothing in the palms of your hands
or because you're surrounded by darkness
the darkness is there to help you
but while you're hoping for a light at the end of a tunnel
you're forgetting that you are light
so you're afraid to show your face
ask yourself something
you think that you're alone in the dark?
you're not alone
there are many just like you
believing they have nothing
feeling ashamed to show their faces
but there's no reason to fear
you all think that you have nothing
what if you have everything you need
but you only have to believe it to see it

© 2014

You Got This

Life is full of surprises
so why do you look surprised
you were taught to be ready for anything
and be ready at all times
but you were never ready
at least not all the time
so you always look surprised
but you shouldn't be surprised
Life is full of surprises
you can't prepare for them all
some will have an answer
others will keep you up at night
some will leave you speechless
others will make you want to tell the world
you know how unpredictable they are
so how's any of this surprising you
Life is full of surprises
but surprisingly you still look surprised 
if you were taught to be ready 
you should've learned to stay ready 
because anything can happen in Life
good or bad
just don't be surprised 
when you see that you're able to handle it

© 2014

Black Tears

I feel like I'm dying inside
but I'm not sad about it
I'm actually glad
because what use to make me mad
no longer effects me 
now it rejects me
because I'm being reborn
I feel taller
and my circle is getting smaller
but I don't care 
because whether you were there for me
or there to see me fall
I was never really worried at all
so don't let the black tears fool you
I have too much class to school you
but I will say this 
the tears aren't because I'm loosing you
and I don't regret choosing you 
I was born to die 
so if a part of me doesn't die
the rest me will never know why 
why I even existed
or why I resisted living all those years
my purpose would be unclear
as unclear as my black tears 

© 2014