Fed Up II

I don't speak for her
but there's that look again
she's fed up with everyone
can you blame her
do you know how many times 
she's heard the same story
from different characters
with the same agenda  
this is why it's hard for her to trust
and take anyone seriously
she also remembers when 
people weren't so easily offended 
by things like who you voted for
or social media in general
all that really mattered
was what was in your heart
having that connection
and putting actions to words
things you build a foundation on
but people are exhausting
whether you show love
or a moment of indifference
you're met with hate and
accusations of lacking humanity
why do we always assume 
the worst in one another
it's disappointing for sure 
still she remains hopeful
but she won't hold her breath
waiting for others to see her light

© 2020

Wish

I wish I could tell you 
that it's gets easier 
as you get older 
but I can't say for sure 
you may find yourself
constantly anxious 
feeling out of place 
with little to no friends 
fighting off depression 
trying to fit in a world
you've never fit in 
while living a life 
you never asked for
I was younger than you
when I tried to end things 
but something happened 
I wish I could tell you 
mental illness goes away
after you find the 
strength to save yourself
for the first time 
but that's not the case 
you may have to keep 
saving yourself
until you realize that you
do deserve to be here
and you being here matters
only then you can begin to
live a life you only believed 
existed once it was over 

© 2020

Mensajes

Apenas te llamo por teléfono
y no nos vemos mucho
no significa que no me importas
sólo que he sido un amigo terrible
indigno de tu tiempo o energía 
pero quería dejarte este mensaje       
entiendo que luchas con depresión
y la ansiedad puede ser espantosa
todos tenemos nuestros demonios 
que no queremos compartir con nadie
porque no es justo hacerlo
así que tratamos de lucharlos solos
está bien si estás cansada de pelear 
no tienes que ser la persona
que siempre haga reír a todos
mereces sonreír más que nada
como cuando estás cantando
puedo sentir la alegría en tu alma
a veces finjo que me estás cantando
no merezco oír tu voz
quizás me siento culpable 
porque necesito ser un mejor amigo
soy capaz de hacer mejor
tal vez es bueno que no llame mucho
qué sirven las palabras 
sin las acciones que las siguen 
dejo demasiados mensajes
es mucho mejor si te muestro 

© 2020

Obvious Haiku

Once you've hit bottom,
there's only one direction 
you can really go.

© 2020

L.O.V.E. Notes: Honestly

I've been in love with you

but I'm sure not you believe me

how can I not be

you're everything I believe in

but I can understand why

you don't trust me romantically

I accept responsibility for that

because I should've been

working on myself daily

knowing it would be worth it

from the moment I met you

I knew I needed your energy

and I knew you'd be a star

because you shine just a bright

from afar as you do up close

very few are as talented as you 

maybe I took all of that for granted

perhaps I should've went with you

to California when you asked me

or married you when you jokingly 

suggested it to me on a Tuesday

because being by your side

supporting you as you show

just how amazing you are

while achieving my own goals

seems like a no-brainer to me

you just do something to my heart

even looking at pictures of you

makes my very soul smile

so whether you're with me

or with someone else

I'm with you every step of the way

when you're in love with someone
especially when it's your friend

that's how it should be

it's been an absolute honor

<3

© 2020