It's so easy to be discouraged
you put so much pressure on yourself
that it's hard to celebrate even the smallest of victories
of course you tell yourself that you can handle it
but you find yourself overthinking
and over-analyzing your decision-making process
rather than trusting your own instincts
something you promised to do more of
there are those who root against you
as well as those who cheer you on
some have chosen to stay close
while others keep their distance
but none to them should be your focus
it's like you always say
everybody leaves at some point
so if all you're left with is your purpose
there's no time to be discouraged
you have to be encouraged
and defiant of all those who pose a distraction
let nothing stop you from claiming what is yours
<3
© 2017
I was told so many times
that this is how I needed to be
if I was ever going to be successful
or fit in with the crowd
but I never did fit in with the crowd
I still don't to this day
and I probably never will
even though I've spent my whole life trying
looking for acceptance
because I'm seen as being too weird
and weird is still viewed in a negative light
that's probably why I'll always feel alone
or why I only feel worthy some of the time
when I should feel worthy all the time
I know I'm not the only one
but I feel like an endangered species
forced to adapt in order to survive
I've gone to such great lengths
trying to be what I don't fully understand
hoping to be understood
without hurting the ones I love
but maybe that's not the hand I was dealt
so instead of trying to lead a normal life
I much rather live unafraid of who I am
© 2017
The darkness was tailor-made for me
so it's only fitting that I make my return
even without a receipt
and while I'm not admitting defeat
I've suffered a couple of losses
but no one's to blame
who else would conceal their pain
only to reveal their shame
not to mention their awkwardness
how embarrassing
I acted alone in good faith
but that doesn't matter now
no matter how hard I try
I always seem to make someone cry
and since those who worry never rest
I'm always going to care
even when I'm not there
but that doesn't matter now either
not when I've abandoned you
and so many others
that's why I have to go back
behind the scenes
where I cannot be seen
until I figure out how this light works
© 2017
So this is what it feels like
how foolish of me
depriving myself of such bliss
when all along I knew
I was very deserving of this
that's why I can't stop smiling
yet I'm too shy to show it fully
but like a pulley
I'm drawn in
supporting this movement
and change of direction
part of me is still unsure though
like what if this is a dream
or it could be a nightmare
things aren't always what they seem
but this feels too wonderful
so don't wake me up
this is everything I hoped it would be
everything others tried to stop
I know it's been a while
but this is how it should be
if nobody loves me more
than I love myself
how can anyone control my smile
© 2017
Solo sé honesto contigo mismo
él no te respeta
y tú lo sabes
si te respetaba
él no trataría de callarte
cuando dice que ama tu voz
o valora tus opiniones
mírale ahora
su mano sobre tu boca así
no es el amor que mereces
incluso si has cometido errores
eso no importa
todavía mereces mejor
porque todos tenemos un pasado
así que todos merecemos respeto
él no te respeta
su amor no es el amor que quieres
pero ya sabías eso
y sin embargo te quedas con él
tal vez la pregunta verdadera es
dónde está tu respeto por ti mismo
si puedes contestar eso
puedes quitarle la mano de tu boca
solo sé honesto contigo mismo
© 2017
