L.O.V.E. Notes: Defying Gravity

I'm not yet who I'm supposed to be
and I have myself to blame or that
why would I blame anyone else
I caused myself to be disappointed
by having high expectations
when I knew better
and that's what brought me down
but not all the way down
not even close
because I'm looking to defy gravity
so no matter how much I hurt
I'll never touch the ground again
people will think I'm falling
when actually I'm really floating

nobody will be able to explain it 

but nobody will be able to deny it ether

those who wrote me off 

will watch me write an amazing story

about making the impossible possible

overcoming obstacle after obstacle

until finally I reach my pinnacle 

not only can it happen 

but it will happen exactly that way

I will defy gravity 

<3

© 2015

Private Plane Haiku

Don't feel discouraged
if you're the only one who 
isn't afraid to fly.

© 2015

Shhhhh

Don't say anything 
keep quiet 
nobody has to know 
so what if I'm bleeding 
what can they do for me
they don't know my pain 
how could they know 
day after day I've suffered 
now I've become numb
it doesn't hurt anymore 
but it doesn't stop 
don't say anything 
keep quiet 
nobody has to know 
I've lost so much 
but I'm still here 
and without their help 
they don't know my pain 
how could they know 
they only see a human
but I'm much more than that 
so what if I'm bleeding 
I'm not dead yet
don't say anything 

© 2015 

L.O.V.E. Notes: Back To Life

You could've saved me
brought me back to life 
couldn't you
well maybe you couldn't have   
as it was my own doing 
so I couldn't expect to be saved 
not by you 
or anyone else 
I had to save myself 
or flatline
all the pain I went through
blaming others
shaming myself
it must have been harder for you
my wounds were self-inflected
but I caused your pain
I created your wounds 
so I couldn't expect to be saved
not by you
or anyone else 
I had to save myself
which I was able to do 
I just wasn't able to save us
but at least now we're both alive

© 2015

It's Really You Haiku

Despite how you feel, 
don't ever be shocked by how
beautiful you are.

© 2015

We'll Always Know

Everything changed that day 
but we wouldn't know in what way 
until after we departed
because see that's when it started
and after everything we both went through
it was safe to say that we both grew
maybe we both knew all along
not that we did anything wrong
but our feelings were hurt in the process
even though we've both made progress
we've took steps that were necessary 
down a path that was very scary 
learning all lessons is a must 
but now people have become harder to trust
so where does that leave us 
where does that leave us 
are we still connected 
or has our thinking become so infected
that it's simply too late 
maybe all we can do is wait
but no matter what the universe decides
we've all impacted each other's lives
so even if we cannot be what we were before
we're definitely not strangers anymore

© 2015