Las sombras
en un punto
fueron mi favorito
lugar de esconder
hasta encontré
mi razón de vivir
un razón de continuar
ya no quiero esconder
pero las sombras
me aceptan
todo lo que soy
me aceptan
sin critica
el mundo no hace eso
ni la gente también
gracias a las sombras
no me siento vergüenza
en su presencia
pero ahora
mi luz debe tomar control
como lo hizo antes
<3
© 2019
Yo sólo quería ser una mártir
porque en mi mente
una mártir es un héroe
pero cómo me puedo llamar una mártir
si me sacrifiqué por nada
una mártir actúa con justicia
luchando por lo que es justo
una mártir muere por sus creencias
sin comprometer su posición
yo debería haber más fuerte
pero no podría esconder mi temor
acepté las consecuencias
y con cada día que pasa
pensé en todo lo que he perdido
todas las oportunidades
los amigos íntimos
una potencial pareja
por no mencionar
la confianza en mi mismo
asi que a dónde voy de aquí
porque ya no quiero ser una mártir
me siento como una víctima
una víctima de mis propias acciones
sólo quería ser yo mismo
pero ahora sólo me siento cansada
e insegura de me puedo levantar
© 2019
Where does it come from
the feeling of not being good enough
maybe it was programmed
into your subconscious at an early age
based on our societal views of one another
or our history as written by the winners
just so that you identify as inferior
maybe it's self-inflicted
that's not so hard to believe
because when you've been rejected by
those you thought would never reject you
and getting treated as if you don't matter
it takes its toll on you
especially at a young age
then as you get older
you start to believe in
what your thoughts have been telling you
it's as easy as breathing
yet suffocating at the same time
that's why you don't mind
when you feel nothing at all
but feeling lets you know you're still alive
so if you feel like you're not good enough
just know that you're more than enough
because you're still here
and you have so much more to do
<3
© 2019
Don't ever expect
to be respected
by someone you respect
those are your expectations
and they'll disappoint you in the end
but if you do feel disrespected
don't let it change who you are
your abuelita used to say
a star is still a star
even if the clouds get in the way
she would also say
the same people
who say God bless
and wish you much success
can also wish you death
in the same breath
so you must be very aware
of who you share your air
and your energy with
just trust your gut
and know when to speak up
if you do keep your mouth shut
don't do it for too long
or you'll become part of what's wrong
and lose sight of what's right
lessons are like people
not one of them are the same
but if you don't learn from them
you'll have no one to blame
but yourself
© 2019
