Unrest

I struggle with regrets 
whether I should have them
or live my life without them 
if things had worked out 
maybe it wouldn't matter as much
but things didn't work out
the way I'd hoped they would
so it messes with my mind
leaving this feeling of unrest 
I think about the decisions
others like myself have made 
and if they could do it over again
would they change anything
having known the consequences 
that's when I had to ask myself
if it was worth everything
friends stopped talking to me
my relationship didn't work out
and I sacrificed my mental health
causing a mountain of self-doubt
but was it worth all of that
to know that I helped at least
one person save themselves
you better believe it was worth it
so maybe it's not the regrets
that I struggle with so much
perhaps I'm just sad still 
because it was all at my expense

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