L.O.V.E. Notes: Hermano

I wasn't a great brother
not even a good brother
I was just your brother
we were thirteen years apart
but the distance between us
seemed further than that
I felt too old around you
and I never fit in with the family
so I used that as an excuse
to stay out of the way
rather than using our love
for video games to bond
or our love for basketball
I also allowed depression
to take away years of us
hanging out together
now five years has passed
but I still wonder what
you must've thought of me
maybe you were embarrassed
to have me as an older brother
I was an embarrassment
and I deeply regret that 
so if I ever see you again
I'll make sure to tell you 
how much you've meant to me

<3

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