L.O.V.E. Notes: Bottom

How do you know when you've hit bottom
I often ask myself the same question
because it seems like every time I look up
the light appears further away than before
and even darker than it's ever been
now maybe my mind's messing with me
causing me to question everything
although it wouldn't be the first time
that wouldn't make a lot of sense
since I feel like I've lost my mind yet again 
why would there be any questions
how do you know when you've hit bottom 
is it when you can no longer think rationally
and bad things keep happening to you 
or is it when you don't know who you are
maybe it's all of those things at once 
do any of us really know the answer 
I can't tell you if I've hit bottom
or if I'm still on this downward spiral
because I don't feel much of anything
so I would almost welcome the crash
in hopes that maybe I could feel something

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