L.O.V.E. Notes: Phasmophobia

How long am I 

going to allow my 

failures to haunt me

I really don't know

the answer to that

perhaps I'll never know

but maybe if I just

stay in the light 

a little while longer

they'll get tired of

waiting for me 

to fall asleep

<3

© 2026

Exasperation

I know the feeling

when you try so hard

not to be the person 

you used to be

but the end result 

is still the same

either you're not

being taken seriously 

or they just don't care

does that bother you

it still bothers me

not like it used to 

but from time to time

I give it energy

maybe too much 

all because I wanted

so badly to be chosen

while forgetting 

the most important step

choosing myself

I'd always forget to do that

but I must remember

truly choosing yourself

means blocking out 

whatever anyone 

else thinks about you

and whatever anyone

has to say about the

changes you've made

don't let them undo

all the work you've done

it's not you anymore

© 2026 

L.O.V.E. Notes: La Más Dura

Yo nunca olvido

ese es mi don

así que mi maldición 

lo que hago con esos recuerdos

hace toda la diferencia 

la responsabilidad es pesada

pero la acepto

hasta el final

espero que no exista tal cosa

como demasiada gracia

porque yo recuerdo

cuando no sentía 

absolutamente nada 

excepto el peso de mis fracasos 

<3

© 2026

Sufficient

I remember being told 

that I fell from grace

because I rely too much

on my own efforts

and my own abilities 

rather than freely claiming 

what God has for me 

hearing those words

prompted a series of questions

I first asked if they believed

God gave them the strength 

to overcome any obstacle 

or endure many hardships

I then asked if they believed

God gave them the power 

to make their own choices

whether right or wrong

finally I asked them if they 

believed they possessed

true God given abilities

yes to all three questions

at that moment it was clear

I could never fall from grace 

maybe they didn't realize

their focus was on religion

whereas mine is relationship

so if I say that I know 

my abilities are divine 

it's the relationship I have

established over time

don't let your beliefs 

rely on passing judgements

or risk missing out on

more than one relationship

© 2026

Cinema

Whether they're a co-star

a supporting actor or actress

or simply just an extra 

everyone has their part to

play in your movie called Life

and while I'd hoped to one day

have a bigger role in that movie

I appreciate the time I had 

being who I had to be for you

as long as I helped in some way

that was my purpose after all

I couldn't have fulfilled my role

with any other mindset 

but it wasn't always so easy 

I selfishly wanted more

because I felt I deserved more

and I know there's nothing wrong

with believing in yourself 

but knowing that some people

are only here for a season

it was my responsibility 

to make sure that whatever 

role I played in your life

was done with care

to the best of my ability

I could feel sorry of myself

but there's still a movie

in production right now

along with several others in fact

we all have a part to play

and I have the biggest part

in at least one of them 

© 2026

L.O.V.E. Notes: It's Fine

I realized something

we may get to write

or rewrite our own story

but we can't dictate

how we'll be remembered

I was hoping that I'd be

remembered for being

an amazing friend with

the best intentions

a kind soul who always

offered affirmations 

that could be life changing

maybe it's the latter

but I should've known

even my own father

who also ghosted me

had a quote on his wall 

written by yours truly 

and he'll even know 

neither will any of you

some of your favorites

under many different names

hanging on your walls

posted on social media 

sometimes I wonder if 

you know it was from me

would it still be your favorite

intrusive thoughts

fueled by loneliness 

they don't last long

so don't worry about me

I don't intend to stop

using my words 

to encourage others 

because no matter how

you remember me

if I remember who I am

and never forget to smile

the story just writes itself

<3

© 2026

Closer

I can't say that I'm surprised

when you know how 

powerful the universe can be

nothing comes as a surprise

just when you think you've seen

the universe at its best 

you realize we have miles to go

before we sleep

and that brings me to you

there were nights where

I would sit in my room

talking to myself

hoping the universe was listening

I'd talk about a dream I had

where I'm describing a person

that I've never met before

but I know they're real

we have so much in common

more than anyone I know

as scary as that sounds

I can't help but to be excited

some people wait there whole lives

and never take the chance 

to bet on themselves 

if the universe shows you a star

you can either keep looking

from a distance 

or figure out how to get closer

everything the universe creates

it does so knowing that

we're all connected

and we'll find one another

© 2025