History

No one can rewrite history

although I'd really like to 
but I can only learn from it
or risk repeating it over again
hoping things will be different
so many nights I've prayed
to help me let go of the past 
focus only on what I can control
and never give up on myself
but I wake up each day in tears 
from the anxiety of it all 
if no one can rewrite history 
where do I go from here
because the pain is unbearable 
how I wish I could delete
those images from my mind
as if they had never existed
but that's not an option for me
I can't change what's happened
and constantly thinking about it
creates this ripple effect
making it difficult to move forward 
so I'm left with no other choice 
I have to keep writing my story
even if I'm apart of the history
no one wishes to remember

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