The Quiet Game (You First) (Translated From Spanish)

I have a voice 
but you don't believe me 
because I use it differently 
I don't always agree with you 
sometimes I say nothing 
I enjoy the silence 
but you don't like it 
and you don't have to like it 
that's why I have a voice 
a calming voice
responsible voice 
but you just want to control my vote 
and if I don't give it to you 
you'll say that I'm without a voice 
but I have a voice 
a strong voice 
it's a true symbol of power 
power that we all have 
but not everyone knows how to use it 
and use it effectively 
your opinions don't affect me 
at least not in a negative way
but if your criticism doesn't help me mature
let's play the quiet game instead

© 2014

Air Bubbles

I never planned for tomorrow 
thinking I would drown in a sea of sorrow
but somehow I've made it to shore 
how I'm really not sure
because the allure of dying 
made me feel less and less like trying 
maybe it just wasn't my time 
but the mere concept is so complex
that explaining it would be a crime 
and probably taken out of context 
so I digress 
while I try to digest just why 
not how my life was spared 
I was just blowing air bubbles
I didn't think anyone really cared 
so allow me to be forgiven for each transgression
as I continue to work through my depression
through my obsession 
with one of my favorite forms of expression 
which is writing 
thereby inviting those 
whether we're friends or foes 
with hopes of uniting us all 
while exposing our flaws
all in the name of cause
and believe me the cause is great 
it's never too late
so allow me to put some food on your plate
the next time you feel like you want to drown
swim to shore
reach down 
and pick up your crown 

© 2014

Clothes Make The Haiku

Underneath it all, 
some people will never be
who they say they are.

© 2014

Qi

Don't try to contain it 
because even if you can't explain it
there's an explanation
so if you're looking for affirmation
all you have to do is look there
deep within the scars you bare 
from all the times you've bled 
to all the tears you've shed
from all the nights you've cried
dealing with a pain you couldn't hide
yes there's darkness in your life
but despite any strife
you've managed to be surrounded by light
and no there's no problem with your sight
for this is real 
this is something you can feel 
this is something you can taste
so don't let it go to waste
please don't 
you probably won't 
because you're practically glowing 
are you sure you had no way of knowing
maybe it's time you uncover those eyes love
to see a shine like the stars in the skies above

© 2014

Last Time

I want nothing less than the best for you
but you've entered a world that I cannot follow
not anymore 
because the last time I was there 
I couldn't breathe 
even if it doesn't bring you peace 
perhaps it will bring you happiness
for that's something you need right now
something you haven't had in a while 
and something you never thought you would have again
I haven't abandoned you 
but it's important that I stay alive
just in case it's you that can no longer breathe
I want to make sure that I'm at my best 
not to save you 
but to help you save yourself 
because that's how much you mean to me
you needed a way out
and I can understand that 
but I made my choice before you made yours
so if you should need a way out again
I will be here
because the last time I was there
I couldn't breathe

© 2014

Knowing What It All Means (Translated From Spanish)

So many words to choose from
I've heard them all before
but they don't sound the same
maybe it's the anxiety
because love sounds like hate
the truth is dead
and I can barely breathe 
where has the help gone?
I want to run away 
but there's nowhere to go
no escape from these words
or the anxiety 
that has to be the difference
it's the anxiety
words never hurt like this
I've never hurt like this
but I'm still alive
as for those words
I can change their meanings
because they mean something to me
the truth doesn't have to hurt
and hate can turn into love
then maybe I can breathe easier 
after knowing what it all means

© 2014

You, Not Me

I needed you
at least I thought I did
you were my escape
but I felt trapped
how was I to know
you were killing me quickly 
when you first kept me alive
but then you let me flatline 
how could you let me die
but only part of me died
it was the part that needed you
thinking you were the cure
now is my opportunity 
my moment 
and you can't take it away 
even though you've tried
I needed you 
at least I thought I did 
some say the truth hurts
and they're right
but the truth was the cure
I never needed you
you needed me

© 2014

The Hero

I just wanted to share this real quick...

I hear a lot of complaints about who people look up to. Some of us aren't happy with who the world's heroes are. We can only blame ourselves the moment we said that we didn't want to be a hero or a role model or a leader. As kids some of us would pretend to be superheroes, but now there are some pretending to be heroes, role models, and leaders for our kids. Are we now ready to finally accept the responsibility? Are we now ready to be who we're supposed to be? Don't adapt to change; adapt by changing. This is the Evolution of Amazing. This world is waiting for heroes to evolve while others hope that doesn't happen. What are we waiting for?

Life Only Values Effort <3

Snow White Haiku

Things that seem to be

good for you can sometimes have

poisonous effects

© 2014

It Takes Steps

I find myself alone on the stairs
not worrying about if anyone cares
but wondering if this is how it's supposed to be
and if not what am I supposed to see
what lesson am I supposed to learn
if I'm told once more to wait my turn
I'm not taking this step to be stepped on
but I feel like a bed the way I've been slept on
I've been mistaken for a quitter
which at times has made me little bitter
I try my best not to mope
because no matter what I'll never lose hope
even if sometimes I'm left with nothing to say
still I find the strength to make it through the day
and if anyone ever asks me how
I'll simply tell them that my time is now
whatever comments they choose to make
are nothing more than a test to see if I'll break
and even though I may seek refuge here
I refuse to shed even a single tear 
because I know I will never fail
as long as I keep holding on to this rail 
I'll be able to stand tall 
which I guess is better than not standing at all

© 2014

Jokes On You Haiku

Sometimes you have to
laugh when someone attempts to
stop you from laughing!

© 2014

The Sense

This bares repeating...

It doesn't make sense for some of us to spend our money on therapy just to find out that we're bitter, but we'll do it anyway. It doesn't make sense to sabotage our present when our future isn't guaranteed, but we'll pull the pin and hold the grenade. It doesn't make sense to start a journey without changing our defeatist attitude, but we'll proceed and then blame the world when we're not successful. We need to start making sense to ourselves. Who cares if anyone else knows what we're doing; we need to know what we're doing. Don't be scared to make sense. That just means you've made change! 

Life Only Values Effort <3

Like The Rise Of A Phoenix (Translated From Spanish)

The wait is over
now is the time
it's said that you only live once
but that's a lie
because here you are
even though you appeared defeated
the world no longer saw your beauty
they thought that you lost your value
but looks can be deceiving 
now they know 
all of your sacrifices 
all of the changes you've made
the changes you're still making
now they see the truth
you were always beautiful 
even in death 
the past has taught you plenty
but the present is the true gift 
as for the future 
the future is now
welcome to a new cycle
a new beginning
welcome to your rebirth 
rise from your ashes

© 2014

From Beautiful Ashes (Translated From Spanish)

It's hard to see you like this

especially after knowing how beautiful you are

the world wants you to wear makeup

to cover up your imperfections

but you're not perfect

the blood

the bandages 

the pain

that's your real makeup

your war paint

that's who you are

it's a symbol of the hell you've been through

the wars you've fought 

the battles you're still fighting

but nobody wants to see you in that light

the world wants a model

if they only knew 

if they could only imagine 

someone so beautiful 

so unafraid to go through such ugliness 

and continue to survive

they don't know that a part of you dies

and what they see are ashes

waiting for you to come back to life

© 2014

If

If you choose to endure
you better make sure
that you can handle the pressure
I'm not trying to give a lecture
but there's a few things you have to know
a few of your old ways have to go
there's too many people living without a purpose
wanting something for nothing like they deserve it
but who am I to say otherwise
I'm just another guy with his eyes on a prize
trying to help others succeed 
with my hand out for those in need

I never claimed to have been through it all
but I know how much it hurts when you fall
getting up isn't the easiest
some of you don't even know what easy is

sure you know that it's time to get tough
when times get rough
but you've been giving into your worst fears
and what's worse is you've been doing it for years
so if you choose to endure

you better make sure
that you can handle who you see
as you become who you were destined to be

© 2014

A Few Words (Translated From Spanish)

I hope you know how beautiful you are
but I hope nobody else knows
because they don't deserve you
so they don't deserve to know
they only see with their eyes
never with their hearts
they say nice things
but you know the difference
respect 
appreciation 
admiration 
love
all words that they should know
but words that they never use
to describe someone as beautiful as you
and they shouldn't be afraid to say this to you
so please forgive me if I sound selfish
or if I appear to be jealous
I just respect where you've come from
appreciate all that you are
admire the changes you're making
and love your bright light
they don't deserve your beauty 
but you deserve to know how beautiful you are

© 2014