Making A Scene

Maybe what you said really healed me
or maybe it killed me instead
because it kills me to have these thoughts
these thoughts in my head
wondering if I'm dead
or just playing dead
is my body really outlined in chalk
or am I just tired of the talk
either way
the ground's where I stay
refusing to stand 
unwilling to even get up 
when I should demand
that I sit up
at the very least I should sit up 
just to see if anyone saw me fall
or if anyone saw you shoot me down at all 
because all I felt was the blast
then again it could've been the past 
the past I do adore
the past that keeps coming back for more
although I showed it the door long ago
it still remains a foe
so maybe what you said really healed me 
or maybe it killed me instead 
then again maybe I'm not dead
which means I'm alive
and would continue to live a lie
if I continue to lie here
and act as if I didn't survive
because lying would be the worst
I'd rather drop dead first 

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