The darkness was tailor-made for me
so it's only fitting that I make my return
even without a receipt
and while I'm not admitting defeat
I've suffered a couple of losses
but no one's to blame
who else would conceal their pain
only to reveal their shame
not to mention their awkwardness
how embarrassing
I acted alone in good faith
but that doesn't matter now
no matter how hard I try
I always seem to make someone cry
and since those who worry never rest
I'm always going to care
even when I'm not there
but that doesn't matter now either
not when I've abandoned you
and so many others
that's why I have to go back
behind the scenes
where I cannot be seen
until I figure out how this light works
© 2017
So this is what it feels like
how foolish of me
depriving myself of such bliss
when all along I knew
I was very deserving of this
that's why I can't stop smiling
yet I'm too shy to show it fully
but like a pulley
I'm drawn in
supporting this movement
and change of direction
part of me is still unsure though
like what if this is a dream
or it could be a nightmare
things aren't always what they seem
but this feels too wonderful
so don't wake me up
this is everything I hoped it would be
everything others tried to stop
I know it's been a while
but this is how it should be
if nobody loves me more
than I love myself
how can anyone control my smile
© 2017
Solo sé honesto contigo mismo
él no te respeta
y tú lo sabes
si te respetaba
él no trataría de callarte
cuando dice que ama tu voz
o valora tus opiniones
mírale ahora
su mano sobre tu boca así
no es el amor que mereces
incluso si has cometido errores
eso no importa
todavía mereces mejor
porque todos tenemos un pasado
así que todos merecemos respeto
él no te respeta
su amor no es el amor que quieres
pero ya sabías eso
y sin embargo te quedas con él
tal vez la pregunta verdadera es
dónde está tu respeto por ti mismo
si puedes contestar eso
puedes quitarle la mano de tu boca
solo sé honesto contigo mismo
© 2017
Not everyone deserves to see it
but you owe it to yourself to do it
especially when you're not sure
if you even have the strength to do it
that's the best time to show it off
no matter what's going on
life isn't always going to go your way
but it's still amazing
and it's even more amazing
if you're smiling through it all
so whenever you decide to smile
we'll all be waiting
I know I will be
praying just to catch a glimpse of it
not everyone deserves to see it
but if it's bright enough
and we know it will be
we'll get a chance to witness
something absolutely breathtaking
I'm smiling just thinking about it
© 2017
The first time I found you
I didn't need a map
as long as I had my heart
it would beat faster and faster
the closer I got to you
so I'll always know where you are
but just in case I lose you
or my heart were to stop
I'll would follow the light
no map
just the light
that's all I need
and I promise
I'll find you again
<3
© 2017
Some of us will never be as successful
as we want to be
or like we're supposed to be
and we have ourselves to blame for that
because when we were talking
we should've been listening
providing positive energy
rather than playing politics
we then chose to be arrogant
instead of showing our appreciation
but apparently being humble is beneath us
perhaps we should just sit down
and think about how we became so vain
when we used to be so ambitious
and so hungry for knowledge
but now we believe we know it all
we're so matter-of-fact about everything
that eagerness to learn is gone
and only the ego remains
maybe pride truly does come before the fall
really all of us should be thriving
but that's not going to happen
so long as we're happy just having potential
and no longer sad about wasting it
© 2017
Cuando tu lloras
tus ojos se hinchan
lágrimas fluyen por tu cara
o caen de tus pestañas
de cualquier manera
están expuestos
y para qué
una idea que tuviste
todo estuvo bien
hasta que tuviste esa idea
aunque no fue una mala idea
una persona hizo toda la diferencia
él era lindo al principio
luchando tan duro por tu atención
así que te lo diste
y en el proceso
perdiste el foco
él no era quien pensabas que era
o quien esperabas que fuera
mientras compartías tus sueños
él estaba ayudando a destruirlos
como si todo fuera parte de su plan
así que aunque no fue una mala idea
deberías haberlo guardado
y salvado tus lágrimas
no dejes que nadie arruine tu maquillaje
© 2017
