I See Myself

So this is what it feels like
how foolish of me 
depriving myself of such bliss
when all along I knew
I was very deserving of this
that's why I can't stop smiling
yet I'm too shy to show it fully
but like a pulley
I'm drawn in
supporting this movement
and change of direction
part of me is still unsure though
like what if this is a dream
or it could be a nightmare
things aren't always what they seem
but this feels too wonderful
so don't wake me up
this is everything I hoped it would be
everything others tried to stop
I know it's been a while
but this is how it should be 
if nobody loves me more
than I love myself
how can anyone control my smile

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