Ode To Normal

I was told so many times 
that this is how I needed to be 
if I was ever going to be successful 
or fit in with the crowd 
but I never did fit in with the crowd 
I still don't to this day 
and I probably never will 
even though I've spent my whole life trying 
looking for acceptance 
because I'm seen as being too weird 
and weird is still viewed in a negative light 
that's probably why I'll always feel alone  
or why I only feel worthy some of the time 
when I should feel worthy all the time 
I know I'm not the only one 
but I feel like an endangered species 
forced to adapt in order to survive 
I've gone to such great lengths 
trying to be what I don't fully understand 
hoping to be understood 
without hurting the ones I love 
but maybe that's not the hand I was dealt 
so instead of trying to lead a normal life 
I much rather live unafraid of who I am

© 2017