Why do I keep reading it
knowing how your words
have made me feel in the past
why didn't I just delete it
after I read it the first time
I've still yet to respond
but I read it every single day
maybe as a way of seeing
how I'm progressing mentally
certainly I'm not trying to
trigger myself by reading it
but something was different
about the last time I read it
I felt this sense of positivity
the energy that comes with it
even if I still curl up in sadness
at least now it's not all I feel
<3
knowing how your words
have made me feel in the past
why didn't I just delete it
after I read it the first time
I've still yet to respond
but I read it every single day
maybe as a way of seeing
how I'm progressing mentally
certainly I'm not trying to
trigger myself by reading it
but something was different
about the last time I read it
I felt this sense of positivity
that I wasn't ready for
I'm still not ready for it
but it gave me hope that
one day I would be
self-care is the best care
and all I want is to be in a
better mental space
so I'll keep reading it
until I'm capable of handling I'm still not ready for it
but it gave me hope that
one day I would be
self-care is the best care
and all I want is to be in a
better mental space
so I'll keep reading it
the energy that comes with it
even if I still curl up in sadness
at least now it's not all I feel
<3
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