Final L.A.P. (Freestyle)

I thought I was finished 
only to be consumed even more 
what the hell am I fighting for 
if it's not to end this war
battling day after day
forget what happened yesterday
don't bring up the other day
I'm trying to happy today
so this is my last angry poem
I can't keep going around in circles
my final last angry poem
I can't keep running around in circles 
wasting my energy won't do 
please spare me the fake hugs
I'm not saying that it's fake love 
perhaps I need a break from love
unless we're talking about self-love
this isn't the me that I want to be
it's not the me that I want to see
when people say they remember me
it hurts thinking about who I used to be
because I loved who I used to be
now I'm reduced to a memory
this isn't how you should remember me
so this is my last angry poem
I can't keep going around in circles
my final last angry poem
I can't keep running around in circles
wasting my energy won't do
that just won't do 
wasting my energy won't do
not even for you

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