En Mi Mente

Para ser solo
con nada pero mis pensamientos 
es una cosa peligrosa
hay tanto que ha pasado 
estoy sin voz
quiero saber por qué 
pero no quiero preguntar 
me duele mucho 
y no lo merezco 
qué voy a hacer ahorita 
me siento triste 
una tristeza que nunca me he sentido 
pero no es el fin
mi cuento sigue
soy una creyente 
una luchadora 
nunca acepto la derrota 
aunque me siento derrotada
es difícil ser positiva 
pero es lo que tengo que hacer 
mis lágrimas entienden todo
y mi dolor es justificado 
sin embargo permanezco fuerte 
más fuerte que nunca 

© 2016 

Thrive

I wrote this for you
but I'm hoping others like you read it 
and feel inspired 
because I'm inspired by you
I just want you to thrive 
you've had so many setbacks 
that you could've easily quit 
and what makes things worse
people rather root against you 
than root for you  
what's in it for me
seeing someone rise above hate
by believing in themselves 
working harder than ever before 
doesn't that sound amazing 
it should 
because that's what you're going to do
I just want you to thrive 
and know that you're beautiful 
even when you don't feel beautiful 
you can do this
I know you're tired
but you can do this 
so I guess I'll leave you to it 

© 2016 

Downward Spiral

Look at my fingers 
they're covered in blood
my blood 
what have I done to myself 
I did what I felt I had to do
when you've been at the bottom 
your fear is going back there 
and I was well on my way 
it's not easy to stop 
there's nothing to hold on to
I did what I felt I had to do
call me crazy 
most definitely insane 
but it's the reason I'm alive 
look at me 
after the hell I've been through 
the hell I've put myself through
I did what I felt I had to do 
how else could I've stopped it
please tell me 
I've loss so much blood 
my fingers may be forever stained 
but at least I saved myself 
so I'll never be the same again 

© 2016

L.O.V.E. Notes: Face To Face

There are moments 
when in an instant 
I can close my eyes 
and when I open them 
we're standing face to face 
it's an anxious feeling 
but a calming feeling 
one of security 
appreciation 
respect 
and love 
I've never felt that before 
the absence of negativity 
of negative energy 
your love for humanity 
for all living creatures 
such warmth 
my tears honor you
continuously 
endlessly 
lovingly 
I love you 
all of you 
from the waves you create 
to the ripple effects you cause
if only my eyes worked 
the way I want them to work
I would see you when they open 
just as I do when they close 

<3

© 2016 

Truth Is

Everyone wants the truth 

but the truth is 

very few know what truth is 

nobody wants information 

but they're quick to get in formation 

and follow the leader 

who are these leaders 

they've caused so much confusion 

now everything's an illusion 

reality is perception 

perceived through the eyes 

of those who don't realize 

the lies they tell themselves 

and some people will believe them

they're the ones who don't work anymore 

but complain about being poor

meanwhile laws are being written 

designed to control the bodies of women 

it happens every single day 

our freedoms are being taken away  

this is why things don't add up 

and why I'm mostly seen behind the scenes 

just because I have the heart for this 

doesn't mean I want any part of this

© 2016 

L.O.V.E. Notes: Used To Be

How long do you stare at them
I stared at them for hours at a time 
getting lost in the memories 
of how things used to be 
blaming myself 
hoping for another chance 
all while knowing the truth
things will never be the same 
every photo that was taken
was like a piece of my heart 
being ripped out of my chest 
that's why I no longer stare at them 
I was addicted to the pain
getting lost in the memories 
of how things used to be 
feeling depressed 
wanting everything to end
all while forgetting about Life 
God's most precious gift 
that's why I no longer stare at them

<3

© 2016 

Mine

I still have dreams 
the kind that have come true for most
yet still elude me
it may seem foolish to keep them
but they're mine 
I tried to share these dreams 
and I was laughed at 
it's okay to share your dreams 
that's what I was told
just not with everyone 
lesson learned 
but now I'm not so sure 
how can I share them with anyone 
I honestly don't know if I can 
though I know I will 
and I'll continue to dream
while at the same time risking it all
because that's the choice I've made
so laugh away
call me pathetic 
then disappear as many have done 
I'll continue to live this life
while having these dreams 
because they're mine

© 2016