Her II

Who are we to judge her
no one gave us that right
how do we know everything about her 
when no one gave us that sight
she may be trying to find her confidence
while holding on to her sanity
but we just make fun of her
and call her out in the name of vanity
when we see a million photos of her
only then do we seem to care
maybe she's trying to capture something
she isn't sure is really there
if we're so quick to throw shade
why do we claim to be so bright 
did we forget what it was like 
when we couldn't see our own light 
some of us still don't know our worth
we're just trying to figure it out
but if we judge her for doing the same
then what's it really all about
maybe if we encouraged her more
instead of always putting her down
she would believe that she's a queen
truly worthy of her crown

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Rise And Shine

From the time you wake up
to the time you go back to sleep 
someone is praying for your downfall 
they don't even want to hear your name
so they don't want to know you're up 
getting ready to start your day
because they know once you get started 
it will be difficult to stop you
nobody wants to stand on the tracks
when the train is coming through 
especially when you're moving 
at the speed of a locomotive 
so if they can derail you in any way
they must do it as quickly as possible 
but they've failed to recognize one thing 
you already had the momentum
the moment you woke up
and the more effort you put out
will increase that momentum
allowing you to get much needed rest
so let them keep praying 
as long as your level of effort 
exceeds their level of hatred 
their prayers will never be answered

© 2017

L.O.V.E. Notes: Wishful Thinking

You expect them to cheer for you
there's no reason why they shouldn't
and while they do cheer 
it's just not as loud as it could be
they much rather try to stop your drive
by taking the keys out of the ignition
hoping you take your foot off the gas
they also love to say you're weak
just because you suffer from anxiety
not knowing how that affects you
that's not the kind of support you want
but if you want to know the truth
anxiety always attacks the strongest
giving them the illusion of being weak
so who are the weak ones really
there's another truth you should know
it doesn't matter if they cheer
because if it isn't their loudest
then they might as well be quiet
but that's probably not going to happen

<3

© 2017

What's Done Is Done

What did you do to them
you must have done something
for them to be so focused on you
they won't stop talking about you
every chance they get is an opportunity
to speak on you in a negative way
you think they would be tired by now
but they seem intent on stopping you
from achieving success in all that you do
they want you to lose faith in yourself
so that you simply just give up
making you much easier to control
but that's not the worst part

these are people who claim to love you
just as they were the last time
remember when they supported you
and tried to hurt you at the same time

while you were giving your best effort
that's what really hurts the most
when the people in your corner
feel threatened by your ambition
but you're trying to be a better you
so whatever that's doing to them
has nothing to do with you

© 2017

Keep Telling Yourself

This is not why you survived
it wasn't so you could keep getting abused
by those who still believe you to be weak
or by those who claim to love you
it's obvious you're still hurting
the pain just doesn't go away overnight
and they knew it wouldn't 
so they tried to get to you
they tried to back you into a corner
knowing you barely escaped the first time
making you question how ready you were
but you know how hard it is to grow
when everyone around tries to change you
that's why you couldn't hide forever
just like you can't hide those scars
or the memories of how they came to be
remember why you survived
it was for a chance at Life
the chance to live the life you imagined
without feeling like you made a mistake
you didn't make a mistake by the way
it was the best decision you've ever made
but if you let them have their way again 
maybe there won't be a next time

© 2017

Rearview

They say you never know where you're going

until you first know where you've been

but that doesn't mean you have to look back

and you're always looking back

when everything you need is in front of you

no one's telling you to forget what's happened

it's not even possible to do so anyway

you don't forget those who've turned on you

or those who said you were out of your mind

for wanting to be something better

you don't forget the ones who laughed at you

not when you use them as fuel to keep going

but do you really need them to keep going

isn't it your drive that keeps you striving for more

so why give credit to the undeserving 

once the light inside of you was discovered

you were unstoppable from that point on

just telling people that they were wrong 

won't be nearly as satisfying as showing them

maybe that's why you keep looking back

you want to make sure they can see everything

but the only person you need to see is yourself

who else is going to help you get there

the only person who can stop you of course

© 2017

L.O.V.E. Notes: Beautiful Disaster

What will become of you
can you answer that question
or are you still undecided 
and uninvited to the party 
where your ideas get together
to share their thoughts 
on what they really think of you
some would see that as taboo
but that's the way your mind works
it loves to trick you
make you question everything
without providing a single answer
so that you obsess over it
instead of getting over it
you take comfort in the pain 
while the agony drives you insane
and that's when you self-destruct
from overthinking too much
so unless you crash the party
all anyone will ever see is fireworks

<3

© 2017