Him

He wanted to get rid of me

but his mother didn't like that

my second grandmother 

what a woman she was

she knew I would be different

than what became of him

watching his own father cheat on her

and being the head of a church 

didn't help matters any I'm sure

but he still could've been better

than what he was

I just wish I never met him

for the days I cried waiting for him

maybe that was foolish of me

not only did I learn how bad

of a father he truly was 

but also how he treated the

women in his life physically 

as well as mentally 

the life of a narcissist 

seeing that was enough to know 

I didn't want to be like him

his absence did leave a void 

but the women who raised me 

filled that void by teaching me 

how to treat others

I've done everything I can

to not be like him

we share more than a name

but we're built differently

the kid in me still cries at times

he just doesn't cry for him 

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