Being Honest

It's unavoidable

at some point in time

you have to stop running

and start being honest

that mirror will be there

waiting for you 

as you can see 

I was too embarrassed

and too disappointed 

in myself to even look

but I did look eventually

stop feeling sorry for yourself

and start being honest

is what I kept thinking

so I was honest with myself

fourteen anxiety attacks a week

isn't how I want to be defined

or how I want to live my life

I don't want to think

of myself as a failure anymore

I just want to feel worthy

and the hardest truth of all

I'm not as amazing a person

as I was in the past 

once I heard myself say that

the look on my face

spoke volumes 

what a sad truth

but the truth nonetheless

one that I needed to hear

and in order to keep growing

it's unavoidable 

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