Wildfire

It still bothers me to this day

even though I'd hoped it wouldn't

knowing how hard I fought

to get out of that hole I was in

after everything that happened

I wasn't where I wanted to be

but at least I was making strides 

how do you know if you're stronger

than you were before

you have to put yourself out there

and that's what I decided to do

I was so proud of myself for

stepping out of my comfort zone

with a renewed since of purpose

it just felt like the right time

but then something happened

and I was exposed as weak

I allowed the insecurities of others
coupled with my own self-doubt

to shake the very foundation

of everything I fought so hard for
it still bothers me to this day
wondering how I allowed
such a wildfire to be extinguished

maybe I was afraid it would
destroy everything in its path
but I was the only casualty 
now I fight to reignite what's left

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