Coming Or Going

I was told it would be worth the wait
so I was expecting a pearly gate
but it wasn't what I thought it would be
maybe God didn't remember me
still I wanted to see it for myself
I just never imagined I would be by myself
now I have no way of knowing 
if I'm truly coming or going
and although I'm not at all afraid to fall 
but if I do fall 
I just hope I land on a cloud
because I remember once being too proud
never asking anyone for help
that's why I'm grateful for every breath
for each one makes me stronger than death
that's also why I keep such a tight grip
because I knew there was I chance I might slip
I'm still not sure how I got here in the first place
or more importantly now where here is
is this where my fear lives
or where my happiness dies 
maybe this is just where my happiness cries
sounds like there's still no way of knowing
if I'm truly coming or going

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