The Difference Makers

So many of you are still searching
for your place in the world
but when you look at what's going on
it's much more appealing to
find another place all together
because how do you fit
in a place that doesn't appreciate
everyone it already has
will you even be noticed at all
or will you also be rejected
and treated unfairly 
just for being who you are
but when you really think about it
you shouldn't be too concerned
because that's how you've always felt
rejected by the ones you respect
mistreated by the ones you love
unappreciated by everyone else
so if those feelings haven't changed 
you shouldn't concern yourselves with 
the opinions of others 
because we all have a place 
your efforts won't go unnoticed 
even if the world won't acknowledge them

© 2019 

Flicker

It's not that easy
people think it is
but nothing could be 
further from the truth
it's a constant struggle
not just being the light
but being in the light
the shadows 
are so inviting 
offering comfort 
even protection in a way
but it's a new year right
that doesn't matter 
anxiety doesn't take a break
depression doesn't 
take a day off
and mental illness doesn't 
know when to quit
so you have to keep going
even if it's not as bright
as it once was
it may even flicker a bit
but that doesn't matter either
just keep it close
if you feel yourself slipping
don't let go
because it's your light
and your light is your life

© 2019

Y Ahora Qué

La ansiedad
es como un parásito
y yo soy un huésped
no me siento bien
me siento agotado
pero sigo luchando
los pensamientos
son como demonios
tratando de matarme
quitando mi luz
no temo la oscuridad
pero me frustra mucho 
cuando gana la depresión

es como un nube oscura
cubriendo el sol
estes sentimientos
no estoy seguro 
si voy a sobrevivir esta vez
tengo que matar el parásito
vencer a los demonios
liberar la luz
y escapar de la oscuridad
hay sólo un problema 
lo he hecho todo antes 

© 2018

I'm No King

I don't need a crown

the throne

nor the kingdom 

or even the title itself 

all I need is a cause

so I can lead by example

the once respected crown

is merely an accessory 

the throne is for sitting 

but I'd rather stand

a kingdom is a kingdom 

some are with you 

while others are plotting

to take your place

and as far as the title goes 

I can be a king
because it's my birthright 

or I can be so much more 
than I ever dreamt possible 

all I need is a cause 

so I can lead by example 
I'm no king
just a being with purpose 
who fights for everyone 

© 2018

Comfortable Being

I don't feel comfortable being myself
at least not like I was before
but I'm working on it
doesn't that say something about me
I recognize that I have doubts
that didn't exist
when I was sure of myself
and what my purpose in life was
I'm still sure of my purpose
but I don't feel comfortable being myself
that's not the worst part though
having to hear those around me
telling me how they miss who I was
or that they can help me
if I would just let them 
and when I respectively decline
they take it as a personal insult 
rather than supporting my need
to do this on my own
I don't feel comfortable being myself
and I'm pretty sure that effects me
more than it does anybody else
but I can't let words get to me anymore 
I'm already uncomfortable enough 

© 2018

Bombshell

Don't get the wrong idea
she may be beautiful 
dare I say sexy
but that doesn't give you the green light
she doesn't use sex as a weapon
like those who came before her
she doesn't even feel sexy
or beautiful half of the time
sure the compliments are nice to hear
but she knows you have to be more
than just another pretty face
in order to achieve your dreams
you have to be intelligent
ambitious to a fault
willing to take risks
and loving of yourself above all else
if you can look at her for one second
and see someone who works as
hard on their spirit
as they do to achieve their dreams
you would know that 
she's even more beautiful
than your eyes could ever show you
but you only see a hot blonde
so you label her using stereotypes
that misrepresent who she really is 
she's not your classic bombshell
and if all you see is a pretty face
pin this picture up on your wall
because you're still stuck in the past

© 2018

Retrograde Haiku

It's times like these when
you realize how important
self-care really is.

© 2018