You're still trying to figure me out
I haven't even figured it all out yet
but the question is still being asked
why do I do what I do
is this really my purpose in life
or is it just another cry for help
from that lonely depressed kid
who had very few friends growing up
flirt
guardian angel
hero
names I'm very familiar with
but in my mind I hear
misunderstood
villain
martyr
I can't really control what's been said
because as people's energy changes
their perception of me changes also
maybe this has happened for you
so why do I do what I do
because it's who I am
and I chose to be who I am
that's all I've figured out so far
© 2018
Not everyone will like you
especially someone like you
someone who spends their time
trying to be a hero
when there are no more heroes
I don't know what happened
somewhere along the way
it became cool to be the victim
and if everybody's a victim
where are the heroes
but someone like you
you see through their lies
similar to a mirror
you show them their reflection
their true self exposed for all to see
and they hate you for it
because they wanted attention
from being the victim
not from who they really are
you were just trying to be a hero
but you can only help others
who want to save themselves
even if that's called being a hero
you'll always be someone's villain
<3
© 2018
Don't be a stranger
never talk to strangers
I've heard it all before
but why should I listen
why should I pretend as if
connecting with strangers
is somehow impossible
the possibility is greater
because there's no pressure
no worrying about if I'm
letting a stranger down
or making them happy
we can just connect
even without meeting
but maybe that's what it is
the urge to see one another
growing inside of both of us
becoming too difficult to control
each day we speak
we may glance at a photo
and begin to wonder
what it would be like to meet
but having a stranger as a friend
is good enough for me
© 2018
On days like today
I question everything I'm feeling
like if the sky is really the limit
why do my hands keep hitting the ceiling
or what is it about pain
that we find so appealing
and why do we favor medication
over the powers of self-healing
so many questions
I'm going out of my mind
that's why I scream in silence
for answers I've yet to find
no one can hear me
only the universe knows
I listen to whispers in the wind
so I look forward to when it blows
my only outlet is helping people
I can't help it if I make a connection
those who've reacted negatively
have been shown their own reflection
part of me wishes I wasn't so different
why do I have to be this way
but I still question what it is to be normal
especially on days like today
© 2018
Sé lo que estás pensando
es muy fácil culparte
pero no es tu culpa
acepto la responsabilidad
la responsabilidad de sentir todo
pensé que era una maldición
una triste realidad
como alguna broma cruel de Dios
porque siento toda la emoción
mientras me siento solo
pero ahora entiendo
es un regalo de arriba
y si trato de negarlo
se pone más difícil de controlar
es mi responsabilidad
así que no es tu culpa
eres una víctima de circunstancias
y no podías controlar tus reacciones
si quieres saber la verdad
no es la culpa de nadie
tenemos que cuidarnos mejor
nuestro éxito depende de eso
porque nada está garantizado
ni siquiera el amor que compartimos
© 2018
This isn't me
I've been divided
trapped between worlds
seeking guidance
absolution
solace
what do I do
keep going
even though
I feel defenseless
paralyzed
distant
more than usual
this isn't me
did I forget
who I was before
I was focused
passionate
energetic
where did it all go
please come back
Universe
I need help to heal myself
this isn't me
© 2018
I remember what it was like
not having a purpose in life
feeling lost at times
without any sort of direction
or an identity to call my own
I was part of the problem
and that made it difficult
to be who I wanted to be
because I was too busy
using what I was good at
to impress those who
didn't take me seriously
or even stick around at all
now I have a purpose
and it hasn't gotten any easier
because it's still difficult
to be who I'm supposed to be
without hurting someone
even when I transform
I'm still as recognizable as before
so how different am I really
have I truly become better
it's clear which direction to go
but it's unclear which me is going
© 2018
