Keep Telling Yourself

This is not why you survived
it wasn't so you could keep getting abused
by those who still believe you to be weak
or by those who claim to love you
it's obvious you're still hurting
the pain just doesn't go away overnight
and they knew it wouldn't 
so they tried to get to you
they tried to back you into a corner
knowing you barely escaped the first time
making you question how ready you were
but you know how hard it is to grow
when everyone around tries to change you
that's why you couldn't hide forever
just like you can't hide those scars
or the memories of how they came to be
remember why you survived
it was for a chance at Life
the chance to live the life you imagined
without feeling like you made a mistake
you didn't make a mistake by the way
it was the best decision you've ever made
but if you let them have their way again 
maybe there won't be a next time

© 2017

Rearview

They say you never know where you're going

until you first know where you've been

but that doesn't mean you have to look back

and you're always looking back

when everything you need is in front of you

no one's telling you to forget what's happened

it's not even possible to do so anyway

you don't forget those who've turned on you

or those who said you were out of your mind

for wanting to be something better

you don't forget the ones who laughed at you

not when you use them as fuel to keep going

but do you really need them to keep going

isn't it your drive that keeps you striving for more

so why give credit to the undeserving 

once the light inside of you was discovered

you were unstoppable from that point on

just telling people that they were wrong 

won't be nearly as satisfying as showing them

maybe that's why you keep looking back

you want to make sure they can see everything

but the only person you need to see is yourself

who else is going to help you get there

the only person who can stop you of course

© 2017

L.O.V.E. Notes: Beautiful Disaster

What will become of you
can you answer that question
or are you still undecided 
and uninvited to the party 
where your ideas get together
to share their thoughts 
on what they really think of you
some would see that as taboo
but that's the way your mind works
it loves to trick you
make you question everything
without providing a single answer
so that you obsess over it
instead of getting over it
you take comfort in the pain 
while the agony drives you insane
and that's when you self-destruct
from overthinking too much
so unless you crash the party
all anyone will ever see is fireworks

<3

© 2017 

Endure

The truth is

people are truly suffering

that's nothing new

but turn on the news

and what do we see

lives lost

killed by Harvey

homes destroyed

people forced to rebuild

and start over

while we sit here

feeling sorry for ourselves

complaining

afraid to rebuild

believing life is over

taking air for granted

without checking our pulse

or putting our hand over our hearts

not to pledge allegiance 

but to prove a point

the truth is

people are truly suffering

but if their hearts still beat

there's no storm they can't weather

© 2017

Now (Again)

How many times have you been here
it seems like too many to count
but here you are yet again
second guessing yourself
wondering what you're truly capable of
can you do the things you say you can do
and will you really do those things 
or are you simply all talk
and nothing more than wasted potential
if you want to know the truth
you're too old to be wasting potential
time waits for no one
so don't expect it to wait for you
especially when you're sitting here
second guessing yourself
wondering what you're truly capable of
there's more to you than this 
but you're afraid to make a decision
the one that'll probably change everything
so if you don't make that decision now
that decision will be made for you
and everything will change no matter what 
this is the second chance that you asked for
don't blow it by second guessing yourself

© 2017

Entre Nosotros

Sé lo que prometimos
que no habría secretos entre nosotros
pero si tenemos secretos juntos
debemos guardarlos entre nosotros
las cosas que nos gustan hacer juntos
con nuestros labios
nuestros manos
y nuestros cuerpos 
o la manera que sentimos cuando..
es perfectamente sana
asi que no estamos avergonzados
pero hay gente que siempre nos juzgará
llamándonos pervitidos
todos tienen un fetiche
pero no se hablan de eso
todo ese placer
y todo esa excitacíon
se quedan en la cama
en un cuarto 
llena de varios juguetes
pero no hablemos de eso
vamos a mostrarnos ahora mismo
lo bueno que somos
guardando un secreto entre nosotros

© 2017

Visual Lies

You have trust issues
is that why your eyes are closed
did they deceive you yet again
by seeing what they wanted you to see
rather than what was really there
maybe that's why you're having trouble
you can't see where you should be
or who you should be
because all you see is misery
everything that went wrong before
and everything that could go wrong again
that's why your eyes are closed
it's understandable 
given everything that's happened 
so just keep them closed for now
at least until things look a little better
the way you imagined they would be
misery doesn't have to be all you see
because it's not all that's there
if you have trust issues
start by trusting yourself
and stop trying to sabotage your vision
don't let your eyes play you for a fool
but don't let them play the fool either

© 2017