Feels Like

None of this seems real

but I refuse to be in denial 

like so many others

as crazy as it sounds

recovery prepared me for this

create a safe environment

keep in contact with loved ones

limit interactions with those

who are unhealthy for you

these are things I was told

and I'm also an introvert

so this should be easy for me

but it's not the same

my safe environment feels

like I'm trapped inside a cell

minus the padded walls

loved ones are back to 

receiving text messages with an 

occasional phone call

I guess no hugs for now

and those who are unhealthy

they're hard to identify now

so I just remain in my cell

none of this seems real

but it seems all too familiar

the only difference is 

I no longer have the choice

a choice I took for granted 

recovery didn't really prepare me

perhaps depression did

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