Wish

I wish I could tell you 
that it's gets easier 
as you get older 
but I can't say for sure 
you may find yourself
constantly anxious 
feeling out of place 
with little to no friends 
fighting off depression 
trying to fit in a world
you've never fit in 
while living a life 
you never asked for
I was younger than you
when I tried to end things 
but something happened 
I wish I could tell you 
mental illness goes away
after you find the 
strength to save yourself
for the first time 
but that's not the case 
you may have to keep 
saving yourself
until you realize that you
do deserve to be here
and you being here matters
only then you can begin to
live a life you only believed 
existed once it was over 

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