Ode to Opportunity

Getting better should be the focus

so I'm just hoping this helps somehow

I've been waiting patiently for you

to finally knock on my door
but you're nowhere to be found 

maybe you feel like I'm undeserving
when all I've tried to do is help others 
giving so much of myself 
losing those close to me in the process
for the first time in my life 
I feel like I'm more than deserving
maybe you feel same way
and just wanted me to stop waiting
because it seems like that's all I do
part of me is hiding from what triggers me
hiding certainly hasn't helped my health
and it doesn't get me any closer to you
it keeps me in fear of those triggers
so there's only one thing left to do
to do something you've never done
you must become something greater
it's the only way to prove that I deserve you
because I can't miss out on you again
and I definitely cannot hide forever
especially from those who will never
see this version of me ever again

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