Make The World

How does she make the world better 
by waking up every single day
knowing that she has a chance to be
everything she's ever dreamed of being
not just to prove it to herself
but to show her kids that it's possible
she knows how hard it can be 
and how hard you have to work 
especially when there are those
who don't want her to succeed 
she has every right to show them
the same ugliness they've shown her
but she just smiles instead
killing them with kindness at every turn
she understands that
it's impossible to make the world better
when you let it bring out the worst in you
so she'll always give her best effort
and that's what makes her so special
that's what makes her story
one worth cheering for
making the world better 
starts with just being a better person
than you were the day before
she's what this world needs
even if it doesn't deserve her

© 2019

How Am I

So how am I doing

does it really matter 

whenever someone asks me

I'm unsure of what to say

maybe I'm just tired of knowing

that I should be doing better

but now is not the time for pity

feeling sorry for myself

won't make things better

people are counting on me

even though there were those

who believed I abandoned them
and those who thought I died
maybe I did die for a little bit
I was just trying to save myself

but now everything triggers me

to the point where I'm even

ashamed of my own light
I refuse to look in the mirror

disgusted by my own reflection
but in spite of all of this
people are counting on me
so how am I doing 
does it really matter
it definitely matters 
because I need to be okay
not just for those who are not
but also for myself

© 2019