L.O.V.E. Notes: Saboteur

I've spent more than half 
of my life trying to be liked
and the other half 
trying to be understood 
but that quest of validation
came with a heavy price
I hurt loved ones
friends became strangers 
and I began to fade away 
when you seek validation
it's because you believe that
you're not good enough
so you look to others 
hoping to be accepted 
without ever accepting yourself
no matter how you look at it
or try to rationalize it
that mindset will destroy you 
and then you'll disappear 
robbing yourself of potential
opportunities to be great 
that's not what you want 
because believe me 
I still can't seem to escape
the hell I've put myself through 
and it's hell to keep trying

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