Rage

Being angry is so exhausting

I consider it a detriment 

to one's development 

but this is more than anger

it feels more like a rage

that has been living inside me

for quite some time now

I've done the best I can do

to try not to project that rage

onto anyone I interact with

but I've got to be honest

it's becoming more difficult
than I could've ever imagined

letting it go is the only option 

and I really really want to
but that's also difficult to do
especially when I think about 
what has me so enraged 
I could put the blame on others
or accept the responsibility
for everything that has happened 
just look at what I've become 
such a disappointment 
I'm so exhausted 
and unsure how much I have left
but I won't let rage be the pen
that writes the rest of my story
I won't let it end like this 

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