Las sombras en un punto fueron mi favorito lugar de esconder hasta encontré mi razón de vivir un razón de continuar ya no quiero esconder pero las sombras me aceptan todo lo que soy me aceptan sin critica
Yo sólo quería ser una mártir porque en mi mente una mártir es un héroe pero cómo me puedo llamar una mártir si me sacrifiqué por nada una mártir actúa con justicia luchando por lo que es justo una mártir muere por sus creencias sin comprometer su posición yo debería haber más fuerte pero no podría esconder mi temor acepté las consecuencias y con cada día que pasa pensé en todo lo que he perdido todas las oportunidades los amigos íntimos una potencial pareja por no mencionar la confianza en mi mismo asi que a dónde voy de aquí porque ya no quiero ser una mártir me siento como una víctima una víctima de mis propias acciones sólo quería ser yo mismo pero ahora sólo me siento cansada e insegura de me puedo levantar
Where does it come from the feeling of not being good enough maybe it was programmed into your subconscious at an early age based on our societal views of one another or our history as written by the winners just so that you identify as inferior maybe it's self-inflicted that's not so hard to believe because when you've been rejected by those you thought would never reject you and getting treated as if you don't matter it takes its toll on you especially at a young age then as you get older you start to believe in what your thoughts have been telling you it's as easy as breathing yet suffocating at the same time that's why you don't mind when you feel nothing at all but feeling lets you know you're still alive so if you feel like you're not good enough just know that you're more than enough because you're still here and you have so much more to do
Don't ever expect to be respected by someone you respect those are your expectations and they'll disappoint you in the end but if you do feel disrespected don't let it change who you are your abuelita used to say a star is still a star even if the clouds get in the way she would also say the same people who say God bless and wish you much success can also wish you death in the same breath so you must be very aware of who you share your air and your energy with just trust your gut and know when to speak up if you do keep your mouth shut don't do it for too long or you'll become part of what's wrong and lose sight of what's right lessons are like people not one of them are the same but if you don't learn from them you'll have no one to blame but yourself
