La Amenaza

A veces es difícil relajarme
es la razón por la que nunca me siento
cada vez que trato de ponerme cómodo
hay otro revés
así que estoy siempre listo
porque me sucedió a mí antes
no tengo miedo
pero entiendo lo que puede suceder
cómo puede suceder
y la ansiedad que trae
trato de controlarla
pero la ansiedad me controla
la sensación es tan intensa
es la amenaza de una pesadilla
y no quiero volver a vivirla de nuevo
así que empiezo a sentir pánico
pero luego me recuerdo a mí mismo
no tengo miedo
esto ha sucedido antes
y mi fe es más fuerte que mi temor
así que tengo que calmarme
pero no es mi culpa 
es la amenaza de una pesadilla 
y realmente no es la pesadilla sí misma

© 2015

Who's Who Haiku

Some will stick their hand
out for help from the same one
looking to be saved.

© 2015

Pillow Talk

Do you know what it's like
it's like wanting to change the channel
but never having the control
or when you know the truth
but you haven't told a single soul
who would believe you anyway
that's what it's like
just look at my history 
filled with so many remember me's
and other painful memories 
but here's the real unsolved mystery 
a man once comfortable in his own misery
suddenly wants to inspire
come on now
no wonder they call me a liar
even though I'm not lying
sure I feel sad sometimes 
but I'm not crying
not anymore
because see I started with my mindset 
which sets the tone
for me to get out of my comfort zone
and I haven't even finished yet
not until I'm as uncomfortable as I can get

© 2015

L.O.V.E. Notes: Child Soldier

I salute who I choose to
so since this is Memorial Day
I salute you 
child soldier
some volunteered 
believing it would secure a sable future
others were ripped from their homes
away from their families 
drugged 
brainwashed
intimidated
forced to see things
and do things
things no child should have to do
no real childhood
but still very much a child
a child that just wanted to be a child
that just wanted to live in peace
before they died in war
so since this is Memorial Day
I salute you 
child soldier
may you finally have peace
it was never your fight

<3

© 2015

WWYD

What would you do 
if your good just wasn't good enough
would you begin to have second thoughts
possibly some doubts
I mean you've had doubts before
but never have you doubted your abilities
when all you've needed was the opportunity 
but what if 
just what if 
you come up just a little bit short
when given that opportunity
as it slips right through the fingers
of those once capable hands
proving incapable of holding on to something
or someone worth holding on to 
ask yourself
what would you do
go on believing that you let everyone else down
when you really just let yourself down
because that's the real truth
so if your good just wasn't good enough
get better
and then give yourself a second chance
before giving anyone else theirs

© 2015

Me

How can I give you all of me

when that's something I've yet to see

I mean I've seen bits of brilliance 

glimpses of greatness 

even pieces of perfection

but that's just it

just a fraction

some say I'm half of who I could be

others say there's another side to me

but how can I give you all of me

when that's something I've yet to see

I'm still beautiful right 

and dare I say amazing

but to be fair I hear what you're saying

so when I say I'm trying 

I'm not lying

but when you discover a part of yourself for the first time

you don't want to give it praise

until you get it appraised 

make sure you know what it's worth

I just want to make sure I know what I'm worth

and now that I do
I still cannot give you all of me
but maybe I can give you all there is to see

© 2015

What's Your Sign Haiku

Peace would be a lot 
closer if we would first just
let our light shine through. 

© 2015 

La Voluntad De Vivir

Cómo estás viva todavía
tal vez es el aire que respiras
el oxígeno
o tal vez es tu corazón
la forma en que mantiene latiendo
o tu sangre
la forma en que sigue fluyendo
yo sé lo que es
es tu cerebro
la forma en que se dice todo lo que debes hacer
no es nada más que la fisiología
pero hay algo más que falta
algo que no se puede explicar
al menos no por la ciencia
es algo dentro de ti 
pero no es algo que se puede ver
es la razón por la que luchas
se llama la voluntad
para ser más específico
la voluntad de vivir
porque sabes que hay más en esta vida
algo más que una simple existencia
necesitas la voluntad de vivir
y creo que la tengas 

© 2015

Some Of Us

Some of us aren't trying to understand one another

if we were

we wouldn't treat one another the way we do 

claiming we love one another 

then act as if we're above one another 

not all of us 

but some of us 

whether it's girl's night out 

or hanging with the guys

it's just an opportunity to talk about one another 

when really we should be talking to one another 

but some of us aren't trying to understand one another

then we wonder why we can't stand one another 

why we barely dance with one another 

because we barely give one another a chance 

not all of us 

but some us

it's all about who can do it better 

but what if we cared to see

what we could do together 

or at least what we could do 

we could encourage one another 

challenge one another to be their strongest 

instead of seeing who's the strongest

we could unite together as one 

but some of us aren't trying to understand one another

and now we know 

why some of us go it alone 

not all of us 

but some of us 

© 2015 

It Would've Come True

I wasted a lot of wishes as a kid

but I was just a kid

I didn't know much about wishing

only to blow out the candles

and not to tell anyone what I wished for

but if I did tell anyone what I wished for

my wish wouldn't come true

sounds simple enough

but everything's simple

especially when you're just a kid

if I knew then what I know now

because as a kid

all of my wishes came true

now there are very few candles

you have to work for everything

and wishes are just that

wishes 

I never understood that before

things were much simpler then

but everything's simple

especially when you're a kid 

if I knew then what I know now

my wishes wouldn't have been wasted

I should've only wished for you

© 2015