Time has been taken from us
and there's no getting it back
while I understand that
it doesn't make me less angry
because I know in my heart
when you were home
I could've protected you
that's what I keep telling myself
I could've stayed overnight
or maybe visited more often
to make sure you were okay
fixing whatever you needed
just like grandpa used to
I'm still not use to the fact
that you don't live in the house
I grew up in anymore
even after all these years
and now you're on lockdown
there's no visitation allowed
I can't even sit with you
whether you remember me
or I remind you of your brother
that doesn't really matter
you'll always be my grandma
as well as my best friend
of course I'm scared
how can I not be scared
these are scary times we're in
I just need you to survive this
so that we can have a chance
to sit together once again
like we used to
<3
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