Visual Lies

You have trust issues
is that why your eyes are closed
did they deceive you yet again
by seeing what they wanted you to see
rather than what was really there
maybe that's why you're having trouble
you can't see where you should be
or who you should be
because all you see is misery
everything that went wrong before
and everything that could go wrong again
that's why your eyes are closed
it's understandable 
given everything that's happened 
so just keep them closed for now
at least until things look a little better
the way you imagined they would be
misery doesn't have to be all you see
because it's not all that's there
if you have trust issues
start by trusting yourself
and stop trying to sabotage your vision
don't let your eyes play you for a fool
but don't let them play the fool either

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SMS

I haven't said much of anything
aside from a few text messages
you haven't responded though
or maybe no response is the response
and I'm just not getting the message
but I don't like to read into anything
so maybe I'll wait to hear from you
how does that sound
it doesn't sound healthy
but what do you expect
you were my immune system 
so how can I be healthy 
when being without you 
makes me sick to my stomach
how can I fight infection 
without your protection 
maybe it's just my gut feeling
telling me I've made a mistake 
knowing what was at stake
now I feel so ashamed
too ashamed to say anything
aside from a few text messages
you haven't responded still
but I keep hoping one day you will

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